I think I might just be going insane. I am spending time daily being more thankful every day for the blessings in my life. Mostly, I am focused on my family. I realize that one of the side effects of the depression that seems to infect so many people is the inability to truly count our blessings on a daily basis and put them in their proper perspective. It seems easier to focus on what we aren't and what we wish we were than what we have and what blesses our lives daily.
My kids are tough for me to really appreciate because they are my full time job. They consume my patience and my fears. I worry about everything to do with them and feel sometimes feel like being with them is a chore. But in the silliest and sweetest of moments, I truly get a chance to see the blessings my kids are to me and the wonder and joy they bring to my life. From Alex's joy of the change in time to Katies demand for her Teddy bear Blankee to the lengthy history of the continents of the earth from Ryan; I am a truly blessed man to have the time to spend with them as they go on with their day to day lives. Sometimes I know I take it for granted.
It is easy for me to appreciate my friends, our town, and our church, but it is tough sometimes to tell them what I feel about them. Either way, I doubt Ill be writing them mushy cards but suffice it to say I am very blessed with the people God has brought into my life.
My family (both the one I have and the one I've always had) are a blessing I sometimes take very much for granted. How many people can offer their kids 3 generations of advise from many different perspectives on any given day? My kids have 4 great grandparents, 4 grandparents (plus), an uncle, and 3 aunts (who pronounce aunt 2 different ways). while I wish we were able to spend more time with each and every one of them, we are just flat out blessed to have them.
Finally, Lori is often overlooked as the source of my strength and the receptor of the garbage I spew when I am stressed. I am proud to know her, let alone get the chance to share my entire life with her. Today I was telling a customer how I think people shouldn't congratulate Lori for our anniversaries because I am the one who should celebrate another year of her putting up with me. I guess in any good relationship a person will feel like they give more than they take and in the best relationships, both partners feel that way. I know I say I love you a lot to her but I dont think I show her often enough.
Anyhow, don't ask me why I posted today, I just felt like it. I have 2 thoughts for today:
Always count your blessings
Peace isn't the absense of conflict, its the ability to deal with it.
Have a wonderful day/night.
1 comment:
I am a truly blessed Aiya. I have two sons who look at the world from different angles and see the same things. Family and loving and giving to people are their prime objectives. Yesterday my son Jonathan posted on his family blog his thoughts about the world and at the same time Eric 1500 miles away posted his thoughts. Each seeing the hope in the world and the future in their children. I could not be a luckier person or more blessed by my family and the wonderful families they have both brought together. I have been fortunate to see the world through the eyes of different people from different areas and beliefs and I have learned many things but the thing I have learned that is the most important is that we all love and have gained from having each other in our lives.
Please kiss my grandchildren and my daughter in law and thank you again and again for them all.
I love you,
Mum
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